What It Feels Like to Lose You 

Loss doesn’t just fade. It doesn’t vanish. It doesn’t leave us. It sits beside us, day after day, year after year. Often a different color or shade, but still there. Still present. Sometimes it shouts so loud it’s all you can hear, and other times it’s a steady hum in the background. A vibration, constant and tugging at your skin. A weight, heavy on your chest. You try to take a breath, but it’s never as deep as you need it to be.

I’ve tried to ease back into my life, but it seems every time the phone rings my body jolts. Who is it? What’s wrong? Is everything OK? That’s part of the anxiety that sometimes comes with tragedy.
Loss isn’t past tense; it’s always present. Always with us. Always with me…

I don’t think we ever recover from our grief. I think we learn to live, broken and battered. A piece of us forever missing. That’s just what it feels like to lose you.

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Autism Spectrum Disorder–Whaaat?!

I read The Mighty which is a great website with numerous real people who write articles on various mental health topics and chronic illnesses. They tell of their experiences and their story. The Mighty makes me feel not  or . I feel I have a place I belong.

I know many people who fall on the “spectrum” of autism but from my experiences few people understand what this means. They think of a spectrum as a linear idea when it isn’t. The Mighty has this great video that gives a little insight into what that means by Rebecca Burgess. I wanted to share it with you in case you’re not sure on what autism means or help those who might not.

If you prefer to read the video instead of watch the video, here is the link for that on the artist’s Tumblr account.

The article on The Mighty’s website is “Comic Redesigns the Autism Spectrum to Crush Stereotypes.”

Please feel free to reblog and share. Let us help end the stigma of mental illness, chronic illness, and neurodiversities.



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Diligence, refocused


Around two years ago, I wrote a post entitled Diligence (Turning Procrastination (follow through) into good habits) and I haven’t touched it since. I apologize for lack of focus. 

What I realized I didn’t discussed is what causes one to stop their good habits or change them. What makes one stop being productive and no longer function successfully with the tasks at hand like you may have yesterday or a few days ago.

There are many things that can through us off, such as

  • Illness
  • Schedule changes
  • Unannounced or planned guests
  • New tasks
  • Lack of sleep
  • Too much sleep
  • Unrestful sleep

How do you handle these interruptions? I am terrible at handling them. Illness usually is a major distraction and causes focusing of any type difficult for me, especially colds or sinus infections. It takes time to heal and to recover from being sick. That’s right. You get over being sick and then need to recover from being sick. These are two different things. The recovery part is what most people seem to miss out on dealing with and just worry they’re relapsing or getting something else. When I get over a major illness, I am run down and usually only have about 50-75% of the energy I usually have. This means taking things slow and not pushing yourself. Listen to you body! If you’re tired, sit down and relax. Take more breaks. Make sure you’re eating the right food and/or supplements, such as probiotics. 

There are few probiotics that work beyond the stomach (I checked with my own doctor about my understanding).  This is because your stomach acid is designed to break things down to allow for easier absorption. The problem with this is probiotics work best when in your gut (I.e. Intestines), and if they’re broken down prior to that, they don’t work. They also don’t work when taken with antibiotics because the two, basically, neutralize each other (again, checked with the doctor and the pharmacist). Unless directed differently, probiotics should be taken two to three hours before or two to three hours after taking antibiotics.